YThursday, February 28, 2008
can i stop thinking of you?
why is it that i feel so uncomfortable?
you changed my world from the start till now.
the start is totally different from now.
it was meant to be a wonderful life for me.
but you want to end it.
what exactly do you want me to do?
i seriously don't know.
when you see me,
it's either you aviod or you pretend you didn't see.
and i try my best to pretend that nothing happened.
but what was the attitude and face expression you gave?
you sort of 'diao' at me.
what's the meaning of this?
is it that you want the cut inside my heart to be deeper?
is it that you want to torture me?
just tell me.
you are the one who hurts me the most.
and you can pretend that you didn't.
will you ever bother to care about me?
how i feel?
what kind of life i'm living now?
i seems to be smiling, laughing and joking about the whole day.
and the reason is i want to hide whatever that is happening.
do you understand?
to you, i might appear to have forgotten everything.
but do you know i never did?
i never forget what has happened.
it's a nightmare to me.
i always tell myself that you will come back.
but will that really happen?
can you fulfil what you had promised me in the past?
i want back the memories we shared.
i want back the days we had together.
i want back the time we spent together with each other...
i never want to end this.
it's you who want to.
i really don't want.
why must you do this to me?
