YFriday, February 22, 2008
oh fuck. i'm in a dam freaky shitty mood. and my ear hurts. it's bleeding inside. ouchs.
had polynomials and bio test todae. fuck larh. i din finish my polynomials test and my bio test i jus lost 4marks cos i duno wad is de ans fer fill in de blank. oh dam. and my eng compre which i got back ytd but forgot to post de marks. i got 18/30. dam it. argh.
nvm. at least i had a wonderful tym laffing during physics lesson. me, hilary and justin were laffing non stop. haha. hilary and justin face turn veri red lorh. as fer mine i dunno larh. haha. can i see? LOL. justin was crapping bout alot of storys larh. haha. create a lot of storys. he can be scripwriter liao. haha. dun believe ask hilary. we laff through out de physics lesson =D
after sch went to tm wif ben, yudha, yz and zy. den saw a big grp of ppl from our sch at mac. haha. errm. got suraj. boon kiat, justin, faisal and de rest i forgot. so surprise tat faisal wil be wif dem. haha. okay. bought tics den go mac eat. wait fer missy fiona to finish her higher chinese. she came to meet us and we stayed in de mac fer a while. saw two persons i dun wish to see. i noe dey going tm larh. but din expect to see dem while sitting at mac. thought dey wil come ltr. nvm.
left mac and go up to de cinema dere. saw dem again at arcade. >.< nvm. den we stood at de cinema entrance dere. dey walk past me. i cant control myself. so i laff fer a while. haha. not veri long though. onli lyk erm 2mins lyk tat. den saw james, py and yp. i noe dey going larh. james told me de. LOL. dey watch jumper. haha. i wanted to watch jumper budden de rest wan watch L. so no choice. but nvm. din regret cos it's nice(:
during de show is dam funny larh. me, fiona, ben and yudha wil look at yingzhao and zhengyu whenever a ger is changing or bathing. obviously dey din show fully larh. de shoulder dere mah. haha. den yz was sitting nxt to me. i duno y larh. he sae sumting den i hit him. and we started fighting. haha. he keep beating my hand and i beat his. LOL. halfway de show chunsee called larh. haha. ask where am i. i sae watching movie den ask when my show end. so i told her 5.30. she ask me go die leh. so bad. herhs. haha. nvm. i ask her go cal james instead. he oso in cinema larh. but his show wil end earlier den mine mah. so she called and i duno wad happen larh. haha.
after show me and fiona chiong to toilet. haha. dam urgent fer me. fer fiona i duno. de show 2hr plus den i bear wif it fer quite long too. oh ya. and de show is full house larh. cool man. haha. den after tat de bois went to de toilets at de food court. and i saw dem again. argh. suay though. nvm. went to cs to walk after tat. and saw mr tan. haha. fiona sae again. LOL. she everytym see him de lorh. haha. he told me he mark finish e6 de bio paper liao. omg so fast. i ask him i fail or pass he dunwan ans me. wa. scared scared sia. okay. den went home. and i dam fuck up.
walau.
i din do anything wrong larh.
kao pei fer wad sia.
duno anything den scold lyk fuck.
everytym i oso reach home at tat tym oso nth wad.
todae u jus scold.
fuck larh.
KNN.
when will you realise i'm around again.
i feel like i'm transparent to you.
you don't seem to bother anything at all.
take a look and that's it.
some times you can stare at me for long.
and i don't know why.
it just make me feel uncomfortable.
you are just giving me false hope.
stop giving me false hope.
i hate that feeling you understand?
why don't you put yourself in my shoe?
think how will i feel?
today was never my day.
you don't give a damn.
and when i'm down,
you are no where to be seen.
you know how i feel.
but did you care at all just now?
i doubt so.
you don't seem to care about it.
i'm feeling so fuck up right now.
you will never understand as you will never ask.
my life really sucks.
it makes a different with and without you.
i hate my life.
i hate the world.
i hate every single thing of my life!
nobody will ever know what i'm experiencing now.
and what i'm feeling and thinking now.
FUCK.
